Pendek kata, aku nak berambus dari tempat itu secepat yang mungkin. 

 

Berharap esok menjadi lebih baik dan positif. 

Goodnight. 

Penang. Training. Soon. 

Couple of times when I feel very dedicated to office work, I brought home piles of papers that later, I feel too lazy to do it after all, hehe...

I think I need a break. As in, a real vacation. As in, an escape to some remote places. As in, to indulge in stress-free activities. Anything at all.


Hmmm...

Right...this time, things have gone slightly off track.  

Slightly.

Motivation decreases by the day. Hopes become blurry. 

New voice is required to turn down the volume. Soft, almost fading from those who conquers the realm.

Alas,stuck in between two routes; one is most travelled and one is less. Worst still, choosing is not an option. Perhaps, not at all.

Status quo shall remain, and so defies any arguments of any form of changes.

The unnecessary limitations cease the countless attempts to be creative, innovative and independent. Hence diffuse uncertainty and confusion.

Ironies and ambiguous truths, and conflicting interests allows only one can win. The rest will have to succumb to the faults. 

Resist is fatal.

And I agree that the only reason I'm still around is because Allah s.w.t has blessed upon myself, the determination and most importantly, to hold on to the truth; my faith in Him.

Alhamdullillah.

So I did the best I could. I may lose my boss's trust after today. Mixed feelings. I need to lie on my bed.


I need my mom.

Jadual untuk bulan Mac ni agak ketat sket. A couple of things is at hand. I'm just hoping things will go alright, insyaAllah. 

I'll definitely do my best. Erm!

Alhamdulillah, another micro-teaching session went on smoothly. I passed. So did my colleague. We did the best we can and indulged ourselves in good food during the break.Happy, happy! 

There will be one after CNY break. I can't wait to finish off the training and start conducting my session soon! Yippie! 

Please wish me all the best, hee~

Finally, hari ini merupakan hari yang ditunggu-tunggu. Hari terakhir untuk final semester ni. 

Coolness! ngee~ No more fretting over 9 am class on Sunday, huhu~

Sekarang cuma tunggu nak Final Exam 28 Feb ni dan  masa yang selebihnya dapat lah aku menumpukan sepenuh perhatian dengan kerjaya, ngeh~

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Aku masih perlu melangsaikan hutang aku ngan UIA, if not, jangan harap nak berkonvokasi tahun ni kan. Please lah. Takpe, akan aku cuba mengikat perut, kumpul duit. 

Small matter lah~

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Kehidupan aku di pejabat sudah menampakkan kemajuan. Masa semakin terisi dengan kerja-kerja yang ditinggalkan oleh budak-budak yang berhenti dari situ. Ya, sememangnya junmlah yang dibayar tidak setimpal dengan workload, but it's ok. I'm not complaining. Anymore. Yet, aku masih berusaha mencari sumber kewangan yang lain. A matter of time and patience. 

Dan aku semakin lali dengan politik di tempat kerja. Aku semakin pandai menapis senior-senior yang kadang-kadang aku rasa berkelakuan dalam status pra-sedar sehingga menimbulkan rasa kurang enak kepada aku dan lain-lain. 

Perasaan de-motivated untuk bekerja masih ada. Hampir tiap-tiap bulan aku amik cuti. Ironinya, aku masih waras untuk tidak bertindak terburu-buru. Hmmm.

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Happy New Year and blessed days ahead.