Aku & 2007

Another year has come,woOhoO...!

Teruk betul kan...dah nak abes bln January nih baru nak post 4 the year 2007,adeh...

Right...Obviously,this is my first entry for 2007 & I hope I can keep my blog going with a

SPLASH throughout the year,Weeee~~~

*even if this is a late entry, I still want to wish u all a HAPPY NEW YEAR !!!, muacks*

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2007 signifies my new phase of life & living towards the age of 23, I want to be a better person, challenge myself to do things I should have done long,long time ago & things I thought are impossible to get them done. Uh-huh, sound pretty yadaa,yadaa...but I am hoping though...

*well...that's what I thought...for now ^_^*

This new semester, I am officially a final year student, cool hor...? There's going 2 be another 2 semesters 2 go & then I'm off to Pluto!!! Dop de Dop de Dop...

Rase mcm kejap je kan...time passes so swiftly, I thought it was just yerterday that I've shifted to main campus, here, in Gombak. Rase mcm hari tuh je me, yas, farah, sha, nairus, safia lepak kat Genting...had a really good time together *teringat time kite sume amik pic dpn fountain tuh...* sungguh memorable...

Throughout the years kat UIA nih, mcm2 dah kita lalui. Hepi, sedey...semua yer utk buat kita sedar, kite bkn mcm budak2 sekolah lagik & over the years, kite become mature, aware ngan surroundings & that... life IS tough.

Ape yg dilalui kat Matric seolah2 mcm sukar sgt nak kekalkan bile dah kat Gombak nih. Masing2 dgn perangai masing2, each with our own expectations, apatah lagik, dok kolej jauh2. Tapi...most of the time, kite berubah atas nama persahabatan. It's undeniably true, things changed & things would change, for the better or for worse but do we have enough guts 2 face the reality...? Terutama sekali, realiti tentang diri kita & how we interact with others...?

Salu je terpikir, do we get to see each other again after graduation...? I don't wish friendships I've built for more that 3 years just puff! like that bile dah blah dari UIA. Biarlah kite menerima masing2 dgn hati terbuka, honest,ikhlas & positive because persahabatan itu ader its ups & downs.

Bocor sane...bocor sini...tuh,biasaQ lor kan...

I know I've changed as a person in every aspect...I've been through a lot & I'm proud aku masih on the right track. God still loves me...and what others perceive me probably have changed too tapi yg penting, aku tau aku masih ader pegangan diri lagi.

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Sejak the last relationship, aku sebenar yer dah serik nak menjalin hubungan kapel2 nih. Lagi saat genting mcm nih, nak grad sume... Tambah lagi ngan assignments yg berlambak2. Byk sgt committments, byk sgt responsibilities & sacrifices of various forms kene go through...Kadang2 terpikir jugak, berbaloi ke menjalinkan hubungan cinta pada waktu ini...?

Apatah lagik apabila hubungan yg terjalin dahulu 4 more than 3 years hilang ntah kemane...penah tak dgr; Kawan hanya untuk berkapeL...? Bagi sesetengah org, mungkin akan m'hadapi kesukaran utk berkwn ngan si dia yg penah kita cintai dgn sepenuh jiwa & raga. Kenangan indah, pahit sume pasti akan menerjah, probably every second bile kite spend time ngan si dia (ex) bile dah break up.

Some pulak, bende mcm ni tak m'jadi masalah; bersikap professional terhadap bekas pasangan yg penah bertakhta di hati kita tuh; berkwn seperti yg dilalui b4 bertukar menjadi pasangan kekasih. Mungkin benar, hilang boyfriend takpe, jgn hilang kawan. Tapi bile kite anggap boyfriend kita seperti kwn baik kita mcm mane pulak...? konpius gue... Situasi perpisahan & definisi persabatan turut berubah for both parties, that's 4 sure.

Usia pon semakin meningkat, zaman2 cinta monyet dah lepas, it's time for the real world, real relationship. Itu aku tak nafikan. Of course, marriage is another story lar kan tp basically, mampukah kita mengekalkan hubungan cinta sehingga ke jinjang pelamin...?

Jodoh,hurm...

-_- l l l l

*Hidup tanpa lelaki pon bosan jugak, at least aku rase mcm tuh...Tapi buat mase nih, hati ini sedang berbunga2 kerana si DIA...

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Semester nih subjects yg aku amik sume takdela horror sgt...tp horror la jugaks...especially EAP (English for Academic Purposes),huhu~~

Sounds so gempak kan...lagik gempak lagik horror,isk3x...ingatkan dah majoring in English nih tak payah la nak susah2 amik subject English lagik...tambah2 kat martic dulu dah amik dah subject cenggini.Mase memula came for the class, me tot kelas mcm English biase...y'know,like buat essay berlambak2...blaja grammar...listening skill ke hape tuh haaa...

Sekali...mmg salah sangka betik...kitaorg diarahkan buat a complete research paper contained 2500 words keh...nak mamposs??!!! bkn tuh je...kene cari references byk2,nak latest plaks tuh...lagik2 tajuk related dgn course kitaorg...mau nak cari satu library tuh...pening dah aku nih...semlm baru je anta Outline research paper tuh.Tak tau laaa...main buat je.Ni dah masuk kali ke-4 aku tukar topic assignment nih. Ni la jugak akibat yer bile disuruh pilih tajuk sendiri, tergapai2 jugak aku dibuat yer.

Kebetulan pulaks,sem ni aku amik Research Methodology...ni pon subject horror jugaks.Nak paham tuh mcm nak paham Mathematics...aku ni mmg lemah maths. Dari skool dulu, tak dapek nak buat ape dah. Subject ni plaks byk nau concepts nak paham, tp untung laaa dpt lecturer yg begitu dedicated & kelakar gaban giler ^_^ Takdela nak stress sgt, cume aku terpakse bgn pepagi nak pi kelas tuh, kelas tuh starts at 8.30am tapi...aku kene ader kat situ at least 45mins lebey awal...nak berebut tempat kata...seksa gaks loh...takpela,cikgu best,heeee~~

oh erm! dressing cikgu tuh mmg "classic" giler...aku rase suar yg die pakai tuh time die masih muda remaja kot, ala2 70s gitu, ketat sey...tp he looks cute on it...y'know old man with great sense of humour, dressing cam cute2 tuh, olololoOoOo...

Lagik 1 subject yg tak kureng seriau yer...is US History.Mmg bkn dlm plan nak amik subjek nih pon tp subject alternative lain dah closed section (kelas dah pnuh). Kang tak amik, dah takde mase nak amik subjek lain plaks, dah nak grad nih, baik jgn byk songeh hor...Berblk kpd US History nih, untung gaks dpt lecturer yg tahap expert giler...nama die Dr. Kopanski,org Poland nih...dah kate org asing, amik mase gak nak paham percakapan die ni, tp bley la nak paham info2 penting, nasib baik gaks kelakar gaban, tak stress sgt,hehehe...! Die pon jenis org tua yg mmg suke buat aksi2 lawak yg mmg cute, ololoOoOLOoOo...

* Next week, ader midterm plaks, kene hapal peta America tuh, kedudukan die sume...yg horror yer, dah la oral test. Adeh...geografi laaa yg aku paling lemah...bkn tuh je, nak kene ingat segala2 yer psl indian tribe nih, aku kene buat psl HURON tribal Indian...

Ni la sejarah, nak mengingat tuh mencabar betik...huh~~

Selain subjects diatas, aku amik Feature Writing & American Literature, hurm...both pon kira boleh tahan gaks cabaran getir die tuh...cume FW mmg super jumbo bosan...sume yer disebabkan lecturer tuh...baik mmg baik tapi aduhai saleha...mengajar sambey duduk...dah tuh plaks, penggunaan bahasa Inggeris, rase yer aku lagik up sket kot, isk3x...mmg disappoint jugaks cos kate feature writing...English kene hebat nak tulis2 articles tuh sume.Nasib2...nak tak nak, kene go thru gak ngan die. All the more reason nak ponteng kelas die nih, tsk3x...noty2...Tp mmg tabik la lecturer 4 American Lit...so damn funny, so freaking giler2!

Mmg tak sia2 pi kelas mlm m'ngadap cikgu tuh, secara tak lngsung, subjek tuh jadi best.

* Literature ni klau tak iya2,mmg bosan + stress + sleepy + gaban = permanent head damage

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Sepatot yer nak kene pi library ni, nak cari bahan for EAP,aduhai...lemah betik O_o

i'm BACK!!!

It's been forever since I last blogged...tsk,tsk,tsk...well,tetibe je ader semangat nak blog once again. *tepuk tgn,yeayyy!!!*

Yeah,I know...aku tak committed,tak serious & biarkan je mase berlalu tanpa sebarang cacatan,huhu~~probably becoz I lost my precious camera so I tot blogging without displaying real pictures taken by ME would be quite BORING...
That was it...Or may be because I was in the state of malas...kot. Malas aja sih...ape yg rajin pon tak tau,hoho!

The year is coming to an end.Rase mcm kejap je kan...Rase mcm I have let everything slipped without doing anything about it.This year has been really TOUGH especially during SEM I 06/07. It made me wanna go crazy.

OMG...

Sometimes...I mean,most of the time,I ask myself,"Is there anything that I can be proud of?"...

Aku rase SEM I nih was the longest semester with so many things happened.Not to mention,I took 6 subjects which will make u want 2 put ur head in a longkang of polluted water, full of shit. There were times when I felt I couldn't take it anymore & eventually, I lost my focus on those subjects particularly Ling App.

Despite that,I passed all of my subjects,yeayyy!!! although not with flying colours tapi cun la kot result tuh.Indeed,it's quite surprising that I did pass for Ling App. & Elit III.
Those 2 I'll tell u...are the cause of my depression,loneliness & brain damage.But then,I guess I didn't put much focus in my studies.I took them for granted,I thought I could manage it by merely belek-belek,gelek-gelek,y'know...hurm.

Then, there was this annual event called ETW (English Theater Week).In conjunction with that,a teater competition was held in Sept. & there were 4 production houses.My group of friends is one them.It was a great experience working with the team although we had several TOooOot here & there & plus, since ni baru 1st time to work as a team with quite a number of ppl, ader laa timbul dissatisfaction,sakit ati & all but we all managed 2 go thru it successfully,fuh~we had dinner at kubur (kebetulan restoran tuh located opposite muslims' cemetery) after that.Celebrate lor sket kan.Although during the award ceremony,we didn't win anything but I think we did good enough for 1st timers,hehe...

Ader yg plan nak join ETW again next year...tp...tak tau laaa...by that time,it'll be our final semester...and I'm still thinking about it,tatot takleh concentrate on other things,huhu~~ And the fact that we had to work with some ppl yg cam kereQ,we've got to think millions times.Damn...

Ape lagik erk yg terjadi...Oh erm! aku penah mengalami sakit pening pale - nak - muntah je during Ethics & Discourse midterm tests...mmg giler.Aku heran sesgt mcm mane aku leh sakit smpai cenggitu skali...Aku ingat lagik,in da middle of Ethics test,aku terpakse meluru kuar kelas ...termuntah dlm longkang sbb tak sempat ke toilet...toilet pon bley jauh nun disana...malu tak malu laaa...there was a girl saw me vomitting & she probably thought I was pregnant or something.Confirm lps tuh,die tak lalu nak mkn,hehehe...well,u can guess a few weeks after that, I got back my result & I almost failed for my Ethics midterm test.aaarrghhh...!!! Can't really blame me...lalalalaaaa...

Of course, this year for 2 semesters (SEM 3 & SEM 1) I had one of the best roommies,Kak Zeti,Kak Hanna & Balkies.Diaorg nih mmg cool giler,sporting sgt.We are so open to each other.Kak Zeti mmg sgt baik & understanding...mmg lawak lor akak nih.Suke kacau kite tau,hehehe...Aku ingat lagik when we were in da same class for Sociolinguistics,I always tot die ni mcm sombong je...hurmm,tp bile dah serumet,she is so COOL.Tak sangka betul.I love you Kak Zeti! Kak Hanna pon camtuh gaks,dah byk kali gak terserempak ngan die kat uia,owez tot she's so stylo...so cun, so famous but owez goes around with this arrogant kind look.BUT she is so COOL too.Again mmg tak sangka...love u too Kak Hanna,hoho! tp yg sedey yer,both of them dah graduate.Baru nak rapat2,nak lepak2...Tinggal aku & Balkies je...wondering who's the other new roomies,hurm...Hope dpt yg cool jugak laaa...tak mau yg kereQ2 or some possessed, psychotic girls.

This year jugak,I've learnt some hard lessons about myself. I realised that bkn sume org suke kat kite walau mcm mane baik pon kite kat org.And that we have to be willing to open up to others too cos klau simpan dlm ati...pendam je...titon pon tarak lena.Aku sedar gaks yg kite takleh nak percaya sgt ngan org... all this while u tot she's ur bestfren but u're so wrong in the end when u ask for her help for the most important thing *sigh* Takpelaa,at least I know she's different now in that sense.God,help me...I hope she stills the one I know back in primary school.

In fact, I have taken on new responsibilities as a student, sister & as a daughter in the family.Skang ni aku dah lebey independent,tak mengharap org sgt...at least things have not been the same especially since the death of my father.My mom's courage has pushed me forward,not to let anybody puts u down.

New semester begins this 4th December & I'm about to go through another 6 subjects...horror x horror loh...Still,I hope I can do my best this time,no more goofing around.*serious nih...*

Akhir kata,selamat maju jaya,huhu~~

revision week...

hmmm...revision week nie rase cam semester break plaks...huhu~~

rase cam bkn nak m'hadapi final exam....ahhh...TIDAKKKK...

tido byk je nih...helpppp....

aku sengal....sengal...

1st paper (25th march '06) = COMPUTER APPLICATIONS IN LANGUAGE STUDIES

ari sabtu...ish...spoil...ape nih...sabtu...alahai...tsk!

i was surprised that TODAY is Thursday...it's Thursday already!!!...oh man!!
and i'll be going back to UIA in the next couple of days...uwaaaaa...the worst thing is...i haven't done anything to finish my assignments...loads of assignments...;'(

2 do list:

1. Grammatical Analysis
2. Comp App - 1st draft-portfolio
3. drama script -Taming of the shrew
4. materials for parenting management course
5. ............ntah ape lagik,haku pong tak hengat...hehehe

there u go...& none of them blum abih lagik...due date is like next month...puh-leeeeezzz azie...move,MOVE AZIE!!!

OKEH THAT'S IT!!

I MUST DO SOMETHING TOMORROW...COZ TONIGHT...I HAVE TO ENJOY MY ....PIZZA =D

YESSSSS!!!

SILE JEMPUT MKN RAKAN2 KU...ONCE again, i just jemput y'll jerk...NO SHARING keh...TAMAK SELALU...yer...ape murid2...???

yer...betuL...TAMAK SELALU BAHAGIA...muahahahahaha!!!!

jgn jelesxx!!

inila aktiviti aku bile bowink kat umah...melantak saje...hohohoho...ari nih, aku mamam kek cokelat yg cambest nih...aku mmg kipas-susah-mati kek cokelat...*nyumm...nyummm....jemput mamam sume!!! jemput jerk,tak mau SHARE!!!

monday morning...

whoaaaahhhh...ngantuk tp takleh tidoQ...huhu~~tetibe je ader a lot of things going on in my mind...so i couldn't go back to sleep.

everybody's gone to school,my mom has gone to work...leaving me all alone in da house...=(

just a second ago, i was thinking i should go out & watch movie later...tak pon just go jalan2 mane2 possibly reached by lrt,hurm.

tp ader 2nd thoughts plaks, assignments menimbum bak everest.bile nak buat,salu jerk takde mood,kalau ader mood pong,it lasts for 30 minutes pastu terus on t.v & then tido terbongkang depan tuh...heheheh...poyos jeWr!

i have to decide nak buat pe for the rest of da day like b4 9am...=)

ye lorrr...nak buat ape2 biar buat in da morning,fresh sket,klau dah petang2,ngantuk,bosan.

hmmm....besh jugaks kan jenjalan kat KLCC...compare to midvalley,i'd prefer KLCC becoz tempat tuh camBest,takler havoc & the thing is,tmpat tuh kecik & possibility nak sesat tuh pada tahap 10%.

huh...eeee...busuK la haku neh...mandi tak lagik,terasa lapau...kelaparan menerjah secara tiba2...

wokey lah! nak berambus doLu...tata~~

what a day!! 22 jan '06

Today is worth remembering...

I had a short visit to my ex-ustaz's house and i'd got to meet the whole family members again since...ermmm....5 years ago...yeah...

It's been quite a while...tuhla aku nih teruk arrr...salu je takde mase nak melawat org lain...time balik umah jerk every weekend,mesti either aku sangap tido tak sedar diri tak pon merayap gi memane. suka hati toL...tsk3x...

anywayz,back to the story lah kan,aku gi sane sebab nak buat research study on one of my ustaz's kids.research findings aku tu plaks requires a study on primary 3 or 4 or paling tua pon, darjah 5 pupil.kebetulan my mom ckp ustaz aku nih ader anak primary 4.aku,ape lagi,rembat je lah =)

so kedatangan aku nih actually nak mintak ler agreement dari pihak respondent aku tuh.i went there with my mom & toy (my youngest bro) & we were welcomed by 2,3 kids in front of the house (umah kat masjid kan usually takde gate or pagar,pastuh attached ngan 2,3 houses yg lain, lebey kurang mcm umah panjang, plus bebudak bersepah la kat luar umah,tak tau la anak sape...hehehe!)

which later i found out that those kids are my ustaz's children...hohoho! dah la cute + potential hot boys bile dah besar = mine...LOL

owhhh! i'm SICK...hehehe!

lepas tuh,kami bertiga dijemput masuk oleh isteri ustaz aku...cantik org nyer...aunt wan mashitah,hmmm...cute! kami pon duduk la kat ruang tamu...my mom dah start borak dgn penuh excited nyerk...aku plaks sibuk tgk interior umah ustaz...although umah kecik tp kemas and COSY...hmmm, i guess i'll be spending more time here in da future...hehehe!!

and then aunt mashitah called out her daughter that i'm supposed to deal with...

TadaaaA!!

muncul lah seorang budak gurL yg comel...uihhh..kalau besaQ nih nanti,mmg cun meletuPp2...nama die siti athiah...hmmm...tak tau la spelling tuh betul ke x...sbb tadi i didn't have enough time to write down her name.it's ok,there'll be some other time,i hope =)

lepas tuh muncul plaks ustaz aku tuh...terus aku hulurkan tgn,cium tgn die (hormat the elderly=penting!)

then tanpa membuang masa,aku pon ckp tujuan aku dtg and that i'm willing to help his daughter in, guess what, MATHEMATICS in ENGLISH!!...ARRRGGHHH...!!!

for most people,yeah, maths is an exciting & challenging subject.tp sedih yerk,it isn't for ME...UWaaaaaa.....='(

for me numbers just don't co-operate with me that much,it's pretty sad but true.and now i'm assigned to do this project.mission = spot the student's weakness--any aspect of maths,then try to help her understand that aspect.*sigh*...tuh yg leceh tue...tp yg bagus nyerk,math for primary 3...fuh!! kalau lecturer soh buat yg form 4 ke 5,mampuih haku...xoxo =p

i'll FAIL the student man!!!

tp ape2 hal,i'll try my best tp yg paling cunTed tadi,parents budak tuh (my ustaz & aunt mashitah) mmg support gilerxx my project yg tak seberapa nih & they really hope i could help their daughter's proficiency in English...err...English haku pon teruK...kah10x.

ye lah,mereka x mampu nak anta anak ke tuition,apatah lagik,nak beli buku2 workbook byk2...at that moment,i thought i could do something good and beneficial for both parties,not just me chasing for an 'A' in the subject (computer application in language studies,as a matter of fact...teehee!), it is also to help the poor community especially in seeking knowledge.

hmmm...small contribution = great satisfaction --> aplikasikan formula nih...hehehe!

therefore,i must,i will, i have to do this for the sake of bridging the communities & volunteerism-->apsal mcm slogan maxis jerk...hehehe..ahhh...lantak!!

we spent almost one hour kat umah ustaz & then we had to balik sbb my mom nak masak 4 dinner plaks-- lapau gaks time tuh,huhu~~

on our way home, tetibe je aku rase cam satu kepuasan sbb this is like my 1st step to go out & meet people,DO SOMETHING 4 PEOPLE...

soooo...i hope i can finish my portfolio nih asap =)

p/s the above pic tuh la gurl yg aku nak tulun tuh...hehehe..cute x???

azeelia-the beginning

Hmmmm...this is my 1st time writing in here. It has never occured to me to weblogging and sharing my thoughts with others until...now (^_~)
All of a sudden, I've got the urge to go on with this blogging thingie. Plus many of my fellow friends involved in the weblogs aka online diary nih. Kalau nak diikutkan,dah lame dah aku register kat blogger.com nih but just for the sake of being 'registered' je lah kan...poyo jerk =)

Because, I used to feel that I didn't really know how to express my feelings or even to jot down any event/occasion that occurs in my surroundings. And it's weird. Basically,aku tak tau nak tulis hape...and that I don't even own the famous 'traditional diary',yg korang dok tulis dlm buku tiap2 hari tuh...

May be aku nih jenis yg suke simpan dlm kepala hotakku, not willing to share with other people aka stingy or may be just plain malas nak let it out, known to others. Lagipon, aku pikir cara mcm tuh, lebih selamat...I mean no one can ever sibuk2 nak tau ape aku pikir pasal something unless of course , if I open my big mouth,duh...

Dulu mase kecik2, aku mmg ader tulis my precious thoughts in a diary. Come to think of it, mmg sweet cos I can actually reflect what had happened, what I felt about something and paling penting, I'll have the opportunity to spot my weaknesses and thus try to improve myself and strive better next time *clears throat*

Ntah bile aku stopped writing in the diary, pogot oredi. But there was once when my brother read my surat cinta yg aku simpan dlm diary tuh,die bace and told my mother. Not that i'm afraid mak aku marah ke or not tp aku malu tahap gunung berapi meletup punyer. aku malu tau tak. malu sbb aku mane ader penah cite alkisah cinta monyet aku kat sesape except my schoolfrens dulu tuh...

Aisehhh...geram sesgt until at one point tuh,aku koyak surat cinta tuh then lepas2 tue,aku dah takde hati nak tulis ape2 lagik dlm diary,simpan love letters ke...atau ape jua bentuk medium 'luahan perasaan'...

Aaaahhh...siOooT BEToL...

tp kalau ingat balik,mmg kelakar laaaa. I mean,it's undeniably difficult nak simpan diary kat mane2 even if u think u keep it in the safest place on earth! mesti ader je keparat yg busybody nak tau alkisah hidup ko tue...kalau pandai simpan takpe,ni kalau mulut celupar yg bace tuh, mmg nasib la. Hangus!!

aku ade bace the Star this morning, there is an article concerns the possible benefits u'll get from weblogging.biar aku rumuskan erk. article ni basically ckp pasal errmmm...disabled communities such as people with disease,physically cacat...diaorg nih jadikan blogging to express their predicaments yg secara x langsung,educate and inspire people.mmg aku support la diaorg nih. penuh semangat perpaduan & kemasyarakatan,YEaY!!!

Kesimpulannya,byk bende kite bleh ponder lepas bace article nih.tuh blum bace blogs diaorg lagik...
fuh, hebat...mmg hebat =)

lepas bace article tu,aku rase weblogging bkn setakat medium of expressions,it also helps to impart knowledge & broaden people's outlook on life & lessons to be learned.

oleh yg demikian,aku rase aku dah tukar persepsi aku pasal blogging or express myself in words and lines simply because now i think,letting people open the door to my life,isn't at all bad...coOL!
WOKEHLaaaa, setakat ni jerk...ape2 hal,teruskan blogging and stay positive people!! wooHoo...