Dah nak masuk bulan ketiga aku menapak kat situ, macam2 kerenah aku take note. 

Situasi yang paling normal adalah 'mengipas'. Terpakse tutup sebelah mata je pun.

Nak gak pekik "Eeeee...pleaz ahh jgn hipokrit...plissss ahh,plisss ahhh...". *kipas diri sendiri...hawt kate*

Tapi nak peduli ape la kan, bukan 'mengipas' itu salah satu surviving skills? Hmmm...terpakse jugak aku renung2kan, heh...

So I'm supposed to conduct a micro-teaching session with the rest of the trainers at the workplace. Next week. I'm dreading the fact that I probably won't do it right. And if my performance does not fit the bill, then I would have to undergo 2-day training again, which means weekends are sacrificed =(

I'm praying things will go alright. Gotta gear up for it!

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Things have been good in the office. Despite the negativity, I just mind my own business.  I think it's safer that way, just do your job and kriiiinnngggg...time to go home already. So yea, other than that, I get myself thrown into a bowling tournament next week and any sports conducted by management for that matter.

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I should be sleeping by now but a lot of things going on in my mind. And I'm worried...

Aku tak tau la nak rase ape sebenar ye skang ni...keliru?mungkin...sakit hati? mungkin jugak...

Tapi one thing for sure, kenape mesti timbulnya soal double standard? Agak tak puas ati jugakla aku kat opis tadi. Takdela sampai nak marah-marah pun. Cuma tu laaa...walaupun bende yang terjadi tuh bende kecik je tapi cukupla nak buat aku tersinggung =(

Tinggal beberapa jam lagi, aku akan menghadapi peperiksaan yang agak mengerikan. Islamic Financial System and Environment. Dan aku tak abih ulangkaji lagi =(

Oh man...big presentation tomorrow. On Islamic Options Contract. Derivatives. Blur still.

Ahhhh tidaaaakkk...this is way too stressful!

Oh dude...tomorrow dah Monday, haiyaaa...cepat yer. It feels like just yesterday je I was happy it was Friday =(

I WANT A FREAKING HOLIDAY.

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Had my Mid-term earlier this evening. I thought I dozed off for a few minutes while writing on the paper, huhu @_@ In fact, I didn't go through my answers, main anta je, tsk,tsk,tsk...Just hope I pass.

Update terbaru.

Rezeki dalam bulan yang mulia ini, aku diterima bekerja di Smart Reader Kids Worldwide at Hartamas. Alhamdulillah...in the midst of finding a stable main source of income during this troubling times and apart from conducting a small private tuition with young kids (it's been a year, wuuu...), I'm honoured to be part of the team. Since last Friday, the day has marked my 4th day at work. I should say I'm very please of myself.

My previous two jobs persuaded me to only work for less than a week. Mungkin takde rezeki kat situ. And I did gave my best shot.

Indeed, to work and study at the same time is undeniably exhausting. Nonetheless, this semester I have less subjects *dropped one which means I have another semester to go, sobs...*. Yang best ye, classes are scheduled only on Sundays during this Ramadhan. And that we are actually close to Final Exams, huhu~ I'm not sure I would enjoy Eid giler2. In fact, presentations dan reports will due after Eid too. Haiyo0O...~

Speaking of Eid and because I've only started on the job early this month, I don't take any extra leave. Saje nak maintain full attendance, hehe...Although I do miss kampung but I'm sure my family and I will schedule the visits during the weekend.

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Esok aku ader Mid-Term Fiqh Muamalah. And macam biase, study mesti mau last minute. Kalau exam kene tunda tahun depan pon, aku akan tetap study last minute. So yea, harap aku dapat jawab esok dengan ok yer, amin...

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Hari ni aku dapat tau dari Jidah, takde air kat mahallah Safiyyah. Again...? Dugaan...So she told me she had to go to mine; mahallah Ruqayyah. Harap tak affect mane2 hostel lain. Terpikir jugak nak bermalam kat UIA tonight tapi memandangkan keadaan tuh, rase lebih baik dok umah dulu. Mungkin esok malam.

bebelan pagi sabtu

Macam tak percaya pula hari ini aku ada kelas. Hari Sabtu. Hari malasku. Kelas bermula pukul 3 sampai 6.30 petang. Time mengantuk. Buat semester baru ini, kelas akan diadakan pada hari Sabtu, Ahad, Selasa dan Rabu. Jadual kelas agak berterabur, tapi aku akan hadapi jua dengan tabah tanpa rasa nak merungut dan/atau mencaci sesiapa kerana aku berazam untuk graduate awal.

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Sejak mama mengamanahkan sebuah kereta Persona kepada aku yang tak bape nak berhemah dalam pemanduan, aku cukup gembira. Aku berjaya menyakinkan beliau bahawasanya aku boleh memandu dengan penuh berhemah walaupun aku masih hopeless dan pathetic dalam mengingati arah tujuku apabila diatas jalan raya.

* Sampai sekarang, aku masih confuse on the route to kedai dobi dekat wangsa maju. Minta pertolongan Jidah lagi.

This is ridiculous. Stop making those phone calls ok azie. Hmmm.

Yeayyy!!! Holidays are here again!!!

I had class this morning up until lunch time. Yup, and it was supposed to be a public holiday. But glad it ended early than I'd expected, fuh~

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He was really getting on my nerves the entire time we had the class this morning. Hence, I couldn't really concentrate on the lesson.

Kalau nak sangat jadi class rep tuh, spit it out lah! Asal lak nak bising2..! And please, I do have a name, not merely a 'class leader'. Just because you're a senior, that doesn't give you any possible right to be superior over me. And stop bothering me with your freaking fake 'terlebey peramah' attitude. I don't buy it!

Haih...tak baik mengeluh

Tetibe rase nak tgk movie plaks mlm ni, huhu...dikala keje yg menimbun,mmg agak cari pasal lor kalau kuar ke cinema skang. Balik campus mesti dah pass midnight,then mesti sah2 tido terus,tak buat keje...Haih...

Skang ni gak terperap kat management centre nih,tak tau nak buat pe.actually,malas nak buat ape2.Haih...

Nak balik bilik,jauh mmg takyah ckp.Walaupon,dlm campus je pon.Tapi still,aku kene jalan masuk simpang ke Ruqayyah tuh, sungguh lar tak larat.Lagik2 skang nih,ngan byk giler buku nak carry. Haih...

Alangkah best yer ade kete skang. Ade kete,senang sket aku nak balik bilik yg nun jauh disane tuh.Nak kemane2 pon senang albeit my driving skill la kan,tp ade kete,ari2 bwk...boleh terer gak one day. Bab ckp psl kete nih, bengang je.Bkn sbb aku tak akan dpt nak beli kete tp dah beli pon,still tak dpt2 lagik. Bulan nih dah masuk 3 bulan, aku dok tunggu cam nangka jatuh. Ntah ape ntah yg lame sgt prosedur tuh. Naik darah gak bile call agen kete tuh,janji bulan lepas,takde lg.pastuh janji lg 15th dec,takde gak. Bengang jeeeee...haih.

Skang nih gak,try nak email notes kat classmate,tak dpt2 send. Nak kate email add salah,tak gak.tp byk kali try.pening suda...susah gak jadi class rep nih.sume kene buat...termiss task,dah kene tuduh tak buat keje.Haih...ade ke patut?

Another thing yg buat aku dread for quite some time is the fact that i have to wear braces.Yup,braces. aku sememang ye kene pakai since high school lg,tp oleh sbb keadaan tak mengizinkan,so aku buat dunno je la.Tapi sejak kebelakangan ni,aku perasan la,ramai yg ckp2 belakang gigi aku tak cantik.Nampak obvious bile aku berckp,apatah lg bile ketawa tak hengat dunia. Aku takdela nak amik bende ni serious pon,sbb aku rase asal gigi aku tak bwk masalah,dlm erti kata lain,bersih suci murni,takyah la nak risau2 ape pon.Kalau org lain rase buruk,lantak korunk la kan.Lagik plak,pas jumpe dentist ari tuh,die sendiri suggested aku pakai braces utk kesihatan gigi utk jangka masa yg lame. Confirm gigi cun smpai ke tua.Betul gak.
Downside pemakaian braces ni plaks,aku kene cabut gigi.Kemungkiann besar,aku kene cabut 4 batang gigi.Yup,sakit..........!!! takut T_T
Appointment dah buat,so kene hadapi gak.Haih...

So there u go,isu2 nih tgh bermain dlm pale hotak. Mane tak pening...tp mmg tak baik mengeluh.Hadapi je la azie. Help me God...

That's it. Aku dah bertekad nak pakai braces. Takut tolak tepi, yg penting gigi aku tak membebankan lagik masalah yg sedia ada nih.

Just came back from shopping for shoes with mom & my youngest brother at Clarks, Bangsar Village. Both mom & I bought a pair each, and for the 1st time ever *I think or that I've just come to realise* that we chose the same colour of our preferred footwear; black. Coolness, hihi...

The thing is, this my 2nd time I had Clarks' on the rack after the 1st pair that I bought almost 2 years ago. And I loved it. It lasted for a year,and I wore practically every single day when I used to work at the kindergarten. The nature of my job requires me to be on my feet from morning till evening *pengsan* so I couldn't afford to wear something that would sprain my ankles when chasing after some active children T_T

And Clarks saved my day =D

In fact, I used to think I won't fit into any Clarks' footwear and I don't really favour of their designs too. But little did I realise that despite the designs, kasut dorang sgt lar selesa okey. Like seriously. Harga pun cun jugak. But yea...comfy. Thus, I decided to get myself a pair for everyday use.

I have the tendency to buy & use a pair of footwear sampai lunyai, koyak2 & in the end, here I come, trash can. It's a good thing though, takdela kasut2 yg dibeli terperap kat rack tuh je kan.


Hmmm...


Shopping for shoes does make your day (^_^)

Hari ini aku berasa sangat vulnerable.

Starting Isnin depan, semester baru akan bermula iaitu semester II 08/09. Bermula minggu depan juga, aku akan menempuh 4 subjek lagi yang aku anggap lebih challenging dari subjek2 yg aku tempuhi in the previous semester. Aku anticipate 4 subjek yg bakal aku amik nih, memerlukan aku utk rajin serajin ye. Dalam erti kata lain, aku perlu:

1) Kurangkan duration tidur di kala tghari

2) Kurangkan menonton t.v series sbb bile dah terpacak dpn computer mmg susah
nak bgn2

3) Kurangkan mendownload t.v series kerana aktiviti sebegini hanya akan
meningkatkan pembaziran masa & sgt addictive.

4) Kurangkan window shopping

5) Kurangkan lepak memlm pas kelas melainkan aku betul2 kempunan teh tarik NZ.

6) Kurangkan berdating melainkan tetibe aku rase lack of kasih sayang & aku mesti
berdating, hahahahahahaaaa...!

7) Kurangkan bergayut di telefon & chatting di ym

8) Rajin2 la ke library, kurang2 ye bile aku tgk org lain tgh study, aku pun akan
dpt merasa penangan pressure utk study sama.

9) Jadikan weekend sebagai masa utk mengulangkaji pelajaran.

10) Dan akhir sekali, rajin2 la bertanye pada org yg lebih tahu & jgn malu bertanye
apabila tak tau/ confused/ sengal. Jgn jadi bodoh sombong, hmmm...

OH MY GOD!!! I PASSED!!!

ALHAMDULLILLAH...

I am indeed grateful to Allah s.w.t for His Kindness, for giving me the chance to go even further. Amin.

Kerun & I hang out together yesterday for some catching up (it's not like we're not going to see each other at campus, but yea...), Tropic Thunder (yea, now I know where that dialogue came from Farah, hee~) & Chili's (ordered dishes giler byk,tak hengat but wut the heck, tempting man...) hihi~

It was good that I finally get to breathe instead of just letting myself locked up the room and I also meant being an unpaid, 24/7 dedicated housewife. I

But then again, it's holiday & I should be in the mood for that. Hmmm...but why am I not feeling it...? Lan's been busy since my holiday started & I don't blame him for us not spending much time together. Work, therefore, important. His job requires him to be at several places at anytime. SoOoOo... I hafta put up with it. Plus,my mom expects me to be around, & of course, not that it's bad thing but...but...but...right now, I feel like I need a retreat.


I wanna go to Shanghai.


I WANT TO GO TO SHANGHAI. Oh yes, that's it.

Great...I can't sleep. All because I had a cup of Nescafe, lucky didn't had two*sigh*
Dah tried guling2 on the bed, feeling restless, then hmmm...

"Online lah..."

Skang nih aku cuti sem. Sgtla best jugak sbb during the semester, I hardly had a good weekend. Meaning I missed out on my family get-together, mother's home-cooked meal & recently, I had to miss out on many open house invitations sbb nak study for Finals, huwaaaa =(

With classes scheduled late in the evening till night (6.30-10pm), I would reached my hostel at almost 12am. See, right after class, I would usually go for some late snack, minum2, lepak2, borak2 & then baru ingat nak balik. The thing is just when the class is about to end, I would be all extra bertenaga to go & hang out elsewhere than during the class session when most of the time, for no particular reason, I get all sleepy & grumpy. Odd? Nah...

There was once when my classmates & I hang out at NZ until 1am, tuh pon after aku realised aku pakai jam, hahahahahaaa...*sbb jarang pakai*
Penangan yer, kene bebel best by mak guard & partner yer. A couple of months back, penah bertelagah ngan mak guard tuh jugaks, but that night, lucky I had come to terms with the whole gelabah situation. Otherwise, berlakulah sekali lagi sesi jerit menjerit, kikikiki~

Point is bile kelas salu abih mlm, situasi ini agak menggangu process tido aku. Sbb yer, aku rase skang mlm ni siang, siang jadi mlm. Tak nak insomnia, huwaaaaaa...

Aku tak tau aku perlu teruskan MBA ni atau tak...

God, please help me...