Finally it's Sunday...sigh~

Best yer dapat dok umah, relax2, tenangkan fikiran yg constantly berserabut nih, huhu~ Alhamdullillah, aku nih sihat lagik, takde migrain although aku nih cepat rase distress, affecting only my menstrual circle at times.

Mama & my bros sume went Seremban, accompanying my 1st bro, Iwan, to an interview held in hotel mane ntah. I didn't catch the name of it. Mama ajak gi same, but malas lar plaks. Lagipon, bkn senang dpt relak kat umah nih. Plus, my other bros ade teman mama, so takdela risau sgt. Mmg aku tak suke pon, mama drive jauh2. But I was told, Iwan yg nak drive, so okey la jugak. So Mama takyah pusing2 cari jalan, hehe...

So yea, all alone at home with Buckcherry's Sorry filled the quietness, stretching lazily on my bed, updating the blog. *grins & looks around the room simultaneously*

Huh...bila la dpt kemas bilik aku nih, messy tak hengat. Mak aku pon takde hati nak masuk....

Kemas dulu loh!


p/s: Update la sgt, hihi~

Totally hate this period pain, tsk~

I had to take half day off my work today. So rase nak pengsan tadi, sweating giler2, huhu~
And feel so weird too, to be at home in the afternoon where at this time, I should be at school ke hulur ke hilir.

Hmmmmmmmmmmm....ape2 pong, got myself a freaking GOOD...LOOONNG NAP, hmph.

*Earlier during the day*

I was not in a good mood, so unfortunate for my children. The cheeky ones all got on my nerve today, gave them all my piece of mind, in a lil bit garang way than usual. Pity...but I was tahan-ing the pain, man...

Right...it's been 3 months that, little children have become a major part of my life. Children,yea...who would have thought? Hmmm...okey, I did.I was kinda like kidding when I said I would want to work at a kindergarten someday & that was like when I was in 2nd year...or 3rd in Gombak...?In which I couldn't really envision my future at the time.

Just when I almost graduated, I tot I'd be working at some banks but then I caught up with my ex-schoolmate, and she suggested I should try this early childhood thing. And so, I decided to go for it. I mean, I need money,huhu~

Of course I had this thing in mind that teaching children would be as easy peasy as squeezing lemons, nonetheless, I was downright wrong...really. With all the Montessori Method and teaching skills involving the children are so new to me. And it's very INTERESTING. The 1st month was hard, I mean I'd to learn them quick to be able to pour on them. And the thing is I'm new, they're new. So yea, I managed...still stumble here & there. But FUN!

Since then, I'm actually enjoying myself now! hehehe...
Despite the tiring tasks but all in all, it really is a fulfilling job because at the end of the day, you have make every effort to make an impact on children for a better tomorrow.

I dunno, but mom wants me to go beyond this. She said I shouldn't be so complacent abt my circumstance now.

We'll see how it goes.

p/s: the thing I dread so much is waking so early every day, huwaaaaa...

Nak blog je,mesti sleepy...huhu~ nak bloOoOog...

Yeayyy!!! Esok cuti! hehehe...

How I appreciate holiday more than ever!

A day off from rugrats (as Nairus says it) ,haaaahhh *hugging pillow*

^_^

I'm craving for CAKES...


CHOCOLATE BANANA...


BLUEBERRY CHEESE...


Puh-leeeezzz...

I drove Lan's car today. This time was the 2nd trial to driving like a normal being, along with Lan fidgeting in his seat beside me. Last week, I drove around my neighbourhood & luckily the road was clear enough for me to inexpertly driving in a zig-zag down the street. Although, it was far, far, far from perfection...but it was a good start.

*Sigh*

See, I haven't been driving since like forever. I mean God knows how long it has been for being nonchalant about the whole driving thing back when I first earned my license freaking 3 years ago, tsk3x...
And all these years, I had a not-so-wonderful life, often relying on public transportation (the ever so crowded LRTs & ever so annoying drivers' cabs, they either drive like an F1 drivers or drive so slow I would rather walk). Just... to reach my desired destinations. Oh yea, and the ever increasing taxi fares. BORED.

Therefore, I've decided to be able to drive again. I don't know when I'll be getting my own car. And I certainly don't want to rush mom to buying one. I might as well take the time I have now to refresh my pathetic driving skills. Yes, from now onwards. No more excuses. Just shut up & drive *uhuk,uhuk*

Tomorrow, I'll drive with my brother. HELP ME GOD.

I'm feeling all gloomy & bored...

Tried to sleep but I just couldn't,huhu~

And I have to wake up at 6am esok,huwaaaaa...

Why couldn't I sleep...? Why couldn't I sleep...? Why couldn't I sleep...? Why couldn't I sleep...? Why couldn't I sleep...? Why couldn't I sleep...?!!!


Azie titon lar...


*heart's beating so fast...*

Hate this feeling...

Please pray for my safe journey keh guys *mwah*

Langkawi calls!!!

Leaving at 9am tomorrow. This time I'm sure gonna put up photos here when I'm back on next Wednesday.

Today, I'm gonna grab a pair of sneakers!

Have a good day everyone,muacks!

Totally hate it, searching for jeans. It burdens me, hunting for the right one.

The RIGHT ONE.

Meaning, Low-cut;Boot-cut for ME.

Aaaannnd I can't even find the one I WANT. I know I'm a little critical & selective about it or shall I say giler cerewet but choosing the right jeans WILL COMPLETELY change your physical appearance. Because in my opinion, no matter how ridiculous your top is, or how cacat/senget your baju is or how byk lemak terlebey you have, wearing a good-fitted jeans will definitely 'hide' it.


So I went to The Curve today, hoping I could find the RIGHT ONE at Metrojaya. Nevertheless, I came back home with frustration & disappointment & mmg giler tension!
Tak dapat cari. If there's my size pon tadi, but the colour of the jeans is just not...right. And it happened otherwise too, I did managed to get the colour I want, but size plaks takde. Adoi...sakit.

You see, how tiring & tedious it is. I'm in need to buy new pair of jeans. I Neeeddd one!

HeeeeeLLLLLPPPP...!!!

So I've made up my mind to start looking for jobs seriously within the following week. Wokey.

Sikalang mau cuti, mau tak mau susahkan pale, mau titon berjam2 lame yer, mau lompat2 sane sini, mau lepak melepak, mau malas2.
Wokey.

Yeaayyy...!!! Final's FINAL are OVER!

I'm back at home now. Home sweet home. No better place than my own sweet home zone. Feeling all relief, similarly to when I'd done with SPM years ago, hihi...

Can't believe myself that I'm actually graduating...I mean once I pass this semester's exam, then oni I can consider myself graduated from UIA. So for the time being, I must pray so hard, hoping I'll get a 'C 'at least, huhu~


Tot of typing summore, but so sleepy now...


Tata~

And so the Tennis written test is finally over. More importantly, the class is OVER at last. Woo...!!! I've been wanting to type this out for so damn long. It's a total relief.

It really is. Fuh~

Well, it wasn't just a class, it was the class that I had my stress level increased day by day. My major complaint WOULD BE...about the class in my daily conversation with my friends, my boyfriend and family. And I think these ppl pon stress jugak mendengar aku membebel about it. Sorry. I just had to.

Nonetheless, the complaint wasn't so much about the class. The whole thing was about...HER. Indeed, she gave me pangs of anger & disappointment about the way she treated me. As a 'friend' konon, hmph!

And so the test was last friday. First of all, I have to thank Balkies for her company that night. She accompanied me to the class or else I'll be a lost little girl, searching for it (I can't remember to any of any ADMIN building's classes, often confused to that of IRK classes & I'm suppposed to be a final-year student, huhu~)

I didn't realise the moment I stepped in the class that I found myself sitting next to her and without even looking at her, I heard her saying,

"Datang pon...ingat tak datang tadi..."

FUCK. Don't talk to me can anot?! Leave me ALONE!

So much effort to avoid her but I just pretended she wasn't there. I did the test quite "smoothly". The fact that I didn't even know what I answered because the questions were tricky & difficult, however, I didn't feel sorry for myself for not being prepared. In fact, I couldn't wait to leave the class. And not to see HER FACE ever again. So what I did was, I just answered the way I wanted, didn't even bother to check my paper after I was done with it. And I handed it with a smile. Of course, I couldn't leave immediately, so I waited about 10 minutes, in case if my coach had anything to say but I had my bag ready beside me and heard her talked to me again,

"Eh, dah angkat bag, dah nak balik dah ke...?"

DUH! Don't talk me, Paham taaaaakkkk...?!!!

In return, I just nodded, and looked the other way. Can't helped but feeling all disgusted.

By the time everyone had handed in their papers, and I was so ready to run out of the class, all my coach could say was,

"Okey, korang semua, before we all leave, let us enjoy some food bought by a student in our class."

I expected him to say that because, one of our classmates, sorry, couldn't remember his name, only recognise his face; bought KFC for the whole class treat thingie. But KFC at the time, wasn't enough for me to conceal my dislike of HER. And so everybody rushed to the table in front of the class. Meanwhile I took the opportunity to RUSH OUT OF THE CLASS THROUGH THE BACK DOOR. Luckily, Balkies was there to pick me up at ITD building with Awin's scooter, hihi~ Thanks again Balkies! and Awin too, muacks!

We had quite an enjoyable ride that night. Balkies had us riding the scooter around UIA,and it was FUN! Apart from the windy night & hardly any cars around, it has been a long time since I ride it. Just by sitting at the back seat pon best giler, hehehe...

*On the bike, having a blast*

When we reached the junction, leading to Nusaibah college, Lan was there to pick me up for minum2. So aku lompat dari scooter, terjun masuk kete Lan, hikhikhik...

Haaah, but all in all, I felt so much lega. No more Tennis. No more HER-subject. No more severe stress. No more hatred. No more worries. And I'll be graduating soon.

Now, I will only have to concentrate on my Finals next week. Wish me luck.

*Flipping through The Merlion & the Hibiscus*

Aku memerlukan tidur yg banyak...penat yer, Tuhan je yg tau...raye sakan, weh...huhu~

Updates soon hor~

Today is officially the start of our holidays,yeayyy!!! (^_~)

Haaaah...I love holidayzzzz...(Note the 'zzzzzz...')
What with no assignments and finals start only next month,so I've so much time for myself!

Yeah...sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeepppp, hehehe~

Since anta my last asssignment ari tuh, mmg rase lega giler (thanks Farah for editing it,muacks!)

No more assignments to dread about, which means no more stress!

My brothers sume at home now,they all came back yesterday. Umah nih dah ter-extra meriah again, hihi~ It feels so good to have everyone at home especially for my mom.

This year of Raya is gonna be an exciting one. I mean we haven't been to Muar for like forever since 2005. Bleylaaa dpt rase raye kat kampung this time. It's definitely a different environment to that of raye-ing in KL. I'm soOoOoOo looking forward to go visit my long time no see aunts & uncles & cousins...hurm. Of course, more importantly, kat sane senang sket nak letupkan supply neh, tempat luas & ader geng lagik kat sane, muahahahahahahaaaa...!!!

(Ari tuh ader test gak kat depan umah, cian jiran terkejut...ya loh, mesit diaorg ingat letupan ape,hikhikhik...almaklum lor,jiran pon dah warga emas, aku pon taknak dioarg heart attack plaks,huhu).

WOKEH!

Gotta to do some last-minute shopping. Im gonna hunt for kuih tart today,it's a MUST!

HEPI RAYE EVERYONE!!!

I'M SO FISHING UPSET WITH HER. I'M SO FISHING ANGRY AT HER. I'M SO FISSSSSSSSSSSHIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIINNNNG MAAAaAaAaAaaaaad! *face feels so hot, wanting to explode any sec*


I freaking feel like slapping her right in her u-think-u-so-great-but-u-ARE-FISHING-NOT face!

Who does she think she is huh?!!! Humiliating people like a nutcase, as if just came out from some FISHING uncivilised territory & just found out that people are not as nutcase as she is and that she can just simply FISHING with other ppl as if she owns other ppl's lives! FISH HER!

Seriously, I have no FISHING idea as to why she treats me like I'm such a hopeless, useless being. I mean I knooOoOw... I've been such a good friend to her all this while Aaaannd... she had to blew it off. Like this...?! I've been so FISHING patient with her attitude throughout our friendship (now I'm starting to question our term of 'friendship') because regardless what ppl say about being friends with these Kino ppl, I dun give much a fish about those generalisation but then it all came so much true the OTHER DAY (I will never ever, in my entire life to forget it!) when she really pissed me off, pushed me really hard on the edge, and snapped me so fishing hard too that suddenly all these questions came popped up in my head there & then.

Is she for real? Is she a frenenemy? Are all these Kino ppl as FISHING PERASAN, SO GREAT, THEY THINK THEY CAN OVERPOWERING & BACKSTABBING PPL WHO ARE NOT OF THEIR KINO SPECIES...?!!! Is she trying to live to the hype that other ppl often think the whole lot in that stereotypical way and have somewhat enjoying the pride of it because they somewhat becomes famous for this and nothing would be called into question??? Or the main reason is just plain individual psychotic attitude...?


Honestly, I don't know. Really.

I'm not saying I'm perfect either. But a friend, a good friend would never ever humiliate one in front of everybody in any way at all; raising a high-pitched voice on purpose ( Most of the time, u can just tell by their facial expression to berlagak), just to let the WHOLE WIDE WORLD know that the person is to blame for everything if the person is at fault. And even when that fault is not entirely one's fault. That means, when u're at fault, you ARE at fault. No further discussion. What more with an act of apology.

A good friend will never ever put any blame squarely on the other party. Saying sorry is a nature of a good, long-lasting friendship. The courage to say sorry is probably the hardest part of communication.

At least I know I'm NOTHING like her. I don't keep on embarrass ppl with such psychotic pride LIKE NO END.

After what she did to me, I definitely don't do the same thing to her. In fact, I've stop talking to her completely. Ignoring every bit of interaction (If YOU, FISH! can call any of our interaction as INTERACTION, I seriously don't know YOU anymore.) I don't do the same thing. Or an act similar to it. BECAUSE, if I do, then it would gives her somekind of importance and eventually fanning the flames of BERLAGAK-ness.

After tonight, I don't think I know you anymore. I don't know how others can actually bear with YOU. I'm not sure if I can ever call YOU a friend anymore. You can go on with YOUR FAKE SMILE, FAKE FRIENDSHIP. Fine with me.

I'm still the old Azeelia. What I do know now, I value friendships. At least, I know I'm able and have the courage to say sorry when either I'm at fault or not so much at fault.

Please...I hope u know exactly what's your mistake. U think u know me, BUT YOU DON'T! Don't u ever pretend to be my BFF, or even call me one, B***H!


huh~





P/S: Balkies, Nairus, Awin and Sara; thanks for being there for me yesterday night. Mmg a great relief dpt let out everything.Of course, Yas & Farah, always there to listen me bebel about her, hugs korunk sume~

And Lan too! If u tak fetch me fast kat court semlm & the other day, I would have come up to her & give her my piece of mind. U saved the day, hugs~

Just had my very early breakfast. Ate Filet Fish. For the 1st time since forever, I was able to finish off the burger, every single bit of it, Yeayyy to me!
And now, I'm sitting in front of my laptop, typing away, trying to force myself not to fall asleep, I mean I just had a burger, for God's sake~ So must tahan for...for...okey! for at least 30 mins, then can go 2 sleep, wee...

So MSL exam went quite well last Monday. One of the questions (We only need to answer 1) was my expected question. And that question had to do with my topic of presentation last week, hee~ So you could say, I'd managed this one exam at the very least *sigh*

Ooo-kay...so now I'm still at home. Usually, I should be back in UIA yesterday. But... I was too malas to go back early, so I tot I'll just balik later at 9am. Still, I've got MSL class at 12 noon *long sigh...* I have a feeling we're gonna have a surprise test today. Aaaaaand... I'm NOT quite prepared yet.

Great.

Bwk buku blk umah pon tak study. This often happens. See, at home, you have every possible things to distract you from studying & of course, it's always the T.V & 24/7 Internet connection.

Yeah.

News...SoOoOoOOo...

My cousin's husband (whom I hardly know in person except for his name Abg Taufik. Worse still, I don't quite remember his name until mom said he's Kak Wati's hubby, OoOoOo-kaaay...) is here to stay with us for 2 months. TWO MONTHS man! Struck me there & then. Kak Wati used to stay with us when I was in Form I, and I didn't really mind becoz you know, pompuan takpe & at the time, she was my age now, single & workaholic. Then, the last time when I was in Form 3, I think. That was when Abd Ijam stayed for almost a year & later when he got married, he stayed here with his wife for almost a year jugaks kot. As far as I can remember, it was quite long & it was enough to angered my mom due to increased phone bills. Get it? SoOoOoOoOo...
It's been some time that ppl actually stay in our house for a period. Aaaaaand, I think it's just me that I feel a little awkward when they're here. Privacy is a bit kacao there. Kenot lepak dpn T.V. with legs like sotong & owez pakai long pants, must be a bit sopan. Our guest is a man, must observe a lil of your aurah. Urghhh...
I mean, especially now Abg Taufik stays here without the whole family, mcm a bit uncomfortable plaks. Well, he's nice & everything but may be I should give some time to really accept him staying here. You know like you would usually say to guests; buat umah sendiri, jgn malu2, hurm. Other thing is, he's not gonna be in the house round the clock, he's working early morning & most probably comes back late at night. Chances to break fast together with the family not so much I guess.

So yeah...I'm still worried. For me, I think he's still a total stranger. Sorry, don't mean to be mean. Extra safety precaution on the move.

Gonna get ready for UIA, another day of boringness, must catch the over-flooded train, I mean...

It's a great relief, now that MSL & World Lit. presentations are OVER. The whole week I'd been dreading over these two, whether or not I ever pull these off smoothly. Surprisingly, they all turned out A-OK...YEAYYY! Especially, MSL presentation. I wasn't just worried about the issues that my friends & I presenting, but also because of our otai lecturer. So not sure, can anot to live up to his expectation. See, he's very strict, you need to know exactly what you're talking about, which means, like he always says, you need to read as many as possible. Which also another problem for me, I don't read as much as he wants me too, huhu~ Plus, when he talks to you, he has this make-sure-u-know-what-u're-talking-abt look over you, which makes me uneasy & well...yeah, afraid somehow. But then again, I learn so much from him in the class. Most often than not, he opens up my mind almost abt everything, not just related to our syllables. And soOoOoOo... it's a challenge for me to be well-read & constantly aware that there's nothing good or bad in life but thinking makes it so, hurm.

The only assignment I need to focus on now is MSL written assignment. Whatever happens, I HAVE to get it done by next week, that is, before the Raya holidays or else I'm so blah. Pray for me...

I watched HEROES,YAHOOOOoOoO! The long-awaited series of Season II has just made its 1st appearance last week I think. Well, thanks to Farah, she told us all abt it,hehehe...Got home yesterday night, went downloaded it straight away! Mmg tak bley tahan2 lagik nak tgk~ Heroes is the only series yg aku betul2 follow, so mmg worth the time, money & energy, huhu~