And so the Tennis written test is finally over. More importantly, the class is OVER at last. Woo...!!! I've been wanting to type this out for so damn long. It's a total relief.

It really is. Fuh~

Well, it wasn't just a class, it was the class that I had my stress level increased day by day. My major complaint WOULD BE...about the class in my daily conversation with my friends, my boyfriend and family. And I think these ppl pon stress jugak mendengar aku membebel about it. Sorry. I just had to.

Nonetheless, the complaint wasn't so much about the class. The whole thing was about...HER. Indeed, she gave me pangs of anger & disappointment about the way she treated me. As a 'friend' konon, hmph!

And so the test was last friday. First of all, I have to thank Balkies for her company that night. She accompanied me to the class or else I'll be a lost little girl, searching for it (I can't remember to any of any ADMIN building's classes, often confused to that of IRK classes & I'm suppposed to be a final-year student, huhu~)

I didn't realise the moment I stepped in the class that I found myself sitting next to her and without even looking at her, I heard her saying,

"Datang pon...ingat tak datang tadi..."

FUCK. Don't talk to me can anot?! Leave me ALONE!

So much effort to avoid her but I just pretended she wasn't there. I did the test quite "smoothly". The fact that I didn't even know what I answered because the questions were tricky & difficult, however, I didn't feel sorry for myself for not being prepared. In fact, I couldn't wait to leave the class. And not to see HER FACE ever again. So what I did was, I just answered the way I wanted, didn't even bother to check my paper after I was done with it. And I handed it with a smile. Of course, I couldn't leave immediately, so I waited about 10 minutes, in case if my coach had anything to say but I had my bag ready beside me and heard her talked to me again,

"Eh, dah angkat bag, dah nak balik dah ke...?"

DUH! Don't talk me, Paham taaaaakkkk...?!!!

In return, I just nodded, and looked the other way. Can't helped but feeling all disgusted.

By the time everyone had handed in their papers, and I was so ready to run out of the class, all my coach could say was,

"Okey, korang semua, before we all leave, let us enjoy some food bought by a student in our class."

I expected him to say that because, one of our classmates, sorry, couldn't remember his name, only recognise his face; bought KFC for the whole class treat thingie. But KFC at the time, wasn't enough for me to conceal my dislike of HER. And so everybody rushed to the table in front of the class. Meanwhile I took the opportunity to RUSH OUT OF THE CLASS THROUGH THE BACK DOOR. Luckily, Balkies was there to pick me up at ITD building with Awin's scooter, hihi~ Thanks again Balkies! and Awin too, muacks!

We had quite an enjoyable ride that night. Balkies had us riding the scooter around UIA,and it was FUN! Apart from the windy night & hardly any cars around, it has been a long time since I ride it. Just by sitting at the back seat pon best giler, hehehe...

*On the bike, having a blast*

When we reached the junction, leading to Nusaibah college, Lan was there to pick me up for minum2. So aku lompat dari scooter, terjun masuk kete Lan, hikhikhik...

Haaah, but all in all, I felt so much lega. No more Tennis. No more HER-subject. No more severe stress. No more hatred. No more worries. And I'll be graduating soon.

Now, I will only have to concentrate on my Finals next week. Wish me luck.

*Flipping through The Merlion & the Hibiscus*

Aku memerlukan tidur yg banyak...penat yer, Tuhan je yg tau...raye sakan, weh...huhu~

Updates soon hor~

Today is officially the start of our holidays,yeayyy!!! (^_~)

Haaaah...I love holidayzzzz...(Note the 'zzzzzz...')
What with no assignments and finals start only next month,so I've so much time for myself!

Yeah...sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeepppp, hehehe~

Since anta my last asssignment ari tuh, mmg rase lega giler (thanks Farah for editing it,muacks!)

No more assignments to dread about, which means no more stress!

My brothers sume at home now,they all came back yesterday. Umah nih dah ter-extra meriah again, hihi~ It feels so good to have everyone at home especially for my mom.

This year of Raya is gonna be an exciting one. I mean we haven't been to Muar for like forever since 2005. Bleylaaa dpt rase raye kat kampung this time. It's definitely a different environment to that of raye-ing in KL. I'm soOoOoOo looking forward to go visit my long time no see aunts & uncles & cousins...hurm. Of course, more importantly, kat sane senang sket nak letupkan supply neh, tempat luas & ader geng lagik kat sane, muahahahahahahaaaa...!!!

(Ari tuh ader test gak kat depan umah, cian jiran terkejut...ya loh, mesit diaorg ingat letupan ape,hikhikhik...almaklum lor,jiran pon dah warga emas, aku pon taknak dioarg heart attack plaks,huhu).

WOKEH!

Gotta to do some last-minute shopping. Im gonna hunt for kuih tart today,it's a MUST!

HEPI RAYE EVERYONE!!!

I'M SO FISHING UPSET WITH HER. I'M SO FISHING ANGRY AT HER. I'M SO FISSSSSSSSSSSHIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIINNNNG MAAAaAaAaAaaaaad! *face feels so hot, wanting to explode any sec*


I freaking feel like slapping her right in her u-think-u-so-great-but-u-ARE-FISHING-NOT face!

Who does she think she is huh?!!! Humiliating people like a nutcase, as if just came out from some FISHING uncivilised territory & just found out that people are not as nutcase as she is and that she can just simply FISHING with other ppl as if she owns other ppl's lives! FISH HER!

Seriously, I have no FISHING idea as to why she treats me like I'm such a hopeless, useless being. I mean I knooOoOw... I've been such a good friend to her all this while Aaaannd... she had to blew it off. Like this...?! I've been so FISHING patient with her attitude throughout our friendship (now I'm starting to question our term of 'friendship') because regardless what ppl say about being friends with these Kino ppl, I dun give much a fish about those generalisation but then it all came so much true the OTHER DAY (I will never ever, in my entire life to forget it!) when she really pissed me off, pushed me really hard on the edge, and snapped me so fishing hard too that suddenly all these questions came popped up in my head there & then.

Is she for real? Is she a frenenemy? Are all these Kino ppl as FISHING PERASAN, SO GREAT, THEY THINK THEY CAN OVERPOWERING & BACKSTABBING PPL WHO ARE NOT OF THEIR KINO SPECIES...?!!! Is she trying to live to the hype that other ppl often think the whole lot in that stereotypical way and have somewhat enjoying the pride of it because they somewhat becomes famous for this and nothing would be called into question??? Or the main reason is just plain individual psychotic attitude...?


Honestly, I don't know. Really.

I'm not saying I'm perfect either. But a friend, a good friend would never ever humiliate one in front of everybody in any way at all; raising a high-pitched voice on purpose ( Most of the time, u can just tell by their facial expression to berlagak), just to let the WHOLE WIDE WORLD know that the person is to blame for everything if the person is at fault. And even when that fault is not entirely one's fault. That means, when u're at fault, you ARE at fault. No further discussion. What more with an act of apology.

A good friend will never ever put any blame squarely on the other party. Saying sorry is a nature of a good, long-lasting friendship. The courage to say sorry is probably the hardest part of communication.

At least I know I'm NOTHING like her. I don't keep on embarrass ppl with such psychotic pride LIKE NO END.

After what she did to me, I definitely don't do the same thing to her. In fact, I've stop talking to her completely. Ignoring every bit of interaction (If YOU, FISH! can call any of our interaction as INTERACTION, I seriously don't know YOU anymore.) I don't do the same thing. Or an act similar to it. BECAUSE, if I do, then it would gives her somekind of importance and eventually fanning the flames of BERLAGAK-ness.

After tonight, I don't think I know you anymore. I don't know how others can actually bear with YOU. I'm not sure if I can ever call YOU a friend anymore. You can go on with YOUR FAKE SMILE, FAKE FRIENDSHIP. Fine with me.

I'm still the old Azeelia. What I do know now, I value friendships. At least, I know I'm able and have the courage to say sorry when either I'm at fault or not so much at fault.

Please...I hope u know exactly what's your mistake. U think u know me, BUT YOU DON'T! Don't u ever pretend to be my BFF, or even call me one, B***H!


huh~





P/S: Balkies, Nairus, Awin and Sara; thanks for being there for me yesterday night. Mmg a great relief dpt let out everything.Of course, Yas & Farah, always there to listen me bebel about her, hugs korunk sume~

And Lan too! If u tak fetch me fast kat court semlm & the other day, I would have come up to her & give her my piece of mind. U saved the day, hugs~

Just had my very early breakfast. Ate Filet Fish. For the 1st time since forever, I was able to finish off the burger, every single bit of it, Yeayyy to me!
And now, I'm sitting in front of my laptop, typing away, trying to force myself not to fall asleep, I mean I just had a burger, for God's sake~ So must tahan for...for...okey! for at least 30 mins, then can go 2 sleep, wee...

So MSL exam went quite well last Monday. One of the questions (We only need to answer 1) was my expected question. And that question had to do with my topic of presentation last week, hee~ So you could say, I'd managed this one exam at the very least *sigh*

Ooo-kay...so now I'm still at home. Usually, I should be back in UIA yesterday. But... I was too malas to go back early, so I tot I'll just balik later at 9am. Still, I've got MSL class at 12 noon *long sigh...* I have a feeling we're gonna have a surprise test today. Aaaaaand... I'm NOT quite prepared yet.

Great.

Bwk buku blk umah pon tak study. This often happens. See, at home, you have every possible things to distract you from studying & of course, it's always the T.V & 24/7 Internet connection.

Yeah.

News...SoOoOoOOo...

My cousin's husband (whom I hardly know in person except for his name Abg Taufik. Worse still, I don't quite remember his name until mom said he's Kak Wati's hubby, OoOoOo-kaaay...) is here to stay with us for 2 months. TWO MONTHS man! Struck me there & then. Kak Wati used to stay with us when I was in Form I, and I didn't really mind becoz you know, pompuan takpe & at the time, she was my age now, single & workaholic. Then, the last time when I was in Form 3, I think. That was when Abd Ijam stayed for almost a year & later when he got married, he stayed here with his wife for almost a year jugaks kot. As far as I can remember, it was quite long & it was enough to angered my mom due to increased phone bills. Get it? SoOoOoOoOo...
It's been some time that ppl actually stay in our house for a period. Aaaaaand, I think it's just me that I feel a little awkward when they're here. Privacy is a bit kacao there. Kenot lepak dpn T.V. with legs like sotong & owez pakai long pants, must be a bit sopan. Our guest is a man, must observe a lil of your aurah. Urghhh...
I mean, especially now Abg Taufik stays here without the whole family, mcm a bit uncomfortable plaks. Well, he's nice & everything but may be I should give some time to really accept him staying here. You know like you would usually say to guests; buat umah sendiri, jgn malu2, hurm. Other thing is, he's not gonna be in the house round the clock, he's working early morning & most probably comes back late at night. Chances to break fast together with the family not so much I guess.

So yeah...I'm still worried. For me, I think he's still a total stranger. Sorry, don't mean to be mean. Extra safety precaution on the move.

Gonna get ready for UIA, another day of boringness, must catch the over-flooded train, I mean...

It's a great relief, now that MSL & World Lit. presentations are OVER. The whole week I'd been dreading over these two, whether or not I ever pull these off smoothly. Surprisingly, they all turned out A-OK...YEAYYY! Especially, MSL presentation. I wasn't just worried about the issues that my friends & I presenting, but also because of our otai lecturer. So not sure, can anot to live up to his expectation. See, he's very strict, you need to know exactly what you're talking about, which means, like he always says, you need to read as many as possible. Which also another problem for me, I don't read as much as he wants me too, huhu~ Plus, when he talks to you, he has this make-sure-u-know-what-u're-talking-abt look over you, which makes me uneasy & well...yeah, afraid somehow. But then again, I learn so much from him in the class. Most often than not, he opens up my mind almost abt everything, not just related to our syllables. And soOoOoOo... it's a challenge for me to be well-read & constantly aware that there's nothing good or bad in life but thinking makes it so, hurm.

The only assignment I need to focus on now is MSL written assignment. Whatever happens, I HAVE to get it done by next week, that is, before the Raya holidays or else I'm so blah. Pray for me...

I watched HEROES,YAHOOOOoOoO! The long-awaited series of Season II has just made its 1st appearance last week I think. Well, thanks to Farah, she told us all abt it,hehehe...Got home yesterday night, went downloaded it straight away! Mmg tak bley tahan2 lagik nak tgk~ Heroes is the only series yg aku betul2 follow, so mmg worth the time, money & energy, huhu~

Whoa...TRANSFORMERS MMG DAMN GOOD GILER.

Just a couple of more hours,i'll be able 2 watch Heroes season finale,yeay!!!

So KENOT WAIT, haaahhh...last week,jeles giler Farah dah tgk dulu,huhu~~so whatever happens pong 2day, kene download gaks,erm! aku akan pastikan cable internet tak dicabut ngan sesukati yer oleh adik gue yg jugaks suke pakai internet time aku nak online. Brothers...tsk.

Maleh yer nak study 4 Arab quiz sok,aduhai saleha...yg bengang yer, oral quiz plaks tuh. aiseyman...dah la tuh,kene buat depan2 sume bdk kelas. mau yer tak tau nak jawab, malu tuh dah 1 hal lar kan...hilang 5 markah cenggitu tuh jew,weih...!!!

STRESS i tau...!

Bkn tak mau study tol2, masalah yer, conpius aku Arab2 nih. Ustaz plaks mengajar, asik lompat sane sinun, fening2 dah me...assignment plaks nak kene anta dlm masa 2 weeks lagik, lagik fening...tuh nasib baik laaa,aku berjaya drop Arab II, if not...mau tak kuar bilik aku,dok study kaw2 ngan red bull bertin2...

Nampak yer, jap lagik kene la aku berkejar beli kamus English-Arab. Ape??!!! Dah nak abeh sem baru nak beli...?? Biase...hikhikhik~ Ingatkan bley laaa nak save beli lipstick baru, nmpak yer, next time je lor...huhu~

Malam td, mak selamat smpai umah dr Sabah, YAHUUU...!!! XOXO~
Dah seminggu tak jumpe mommy, rindu i tau,hehehe...Of koros la kan, kitaorg sume dok berebut brg2 mommy beli, lalalaaaaa...And she bought a super cute 3/4 pants, lurve it! And not to poget, my mom & i have this great interest of collecting super duper gila kuasa yer design kind of BROOCH...! ^_^
She bought loads of them, made from colourful of the not-so-mahal-crystal brooch,hehe...best yer! tp tak kisah laaa...mmg la murah kat sane,mahal kat KL, mmg cam siao. Tenkiu mommy!

Aku ni plaks mmg suke pakai brooch besar2 especially time silang tudung kat shoulder. Org kata pakai brooch besar2 nih salu yer sesuai 4 makciks2 but wut da heck...i lurve it! they're not just senang nak pakai cos pin besar, i won't have to lenguhkan jari jemari aku yg cun nak sangkut pin tuh kat tudung. Totally hate the ones where the pins are just so ketat & u just hafta break ur fingernails,tsk!

Best yer dpt cuti2 Malaysia kat Sabah hor...shopping kaw2! yeah,someday...

im in the midst of helping my bro's assignment...a full report of his engineering training thingie at Kuantan. the work reminds me of the horrible EAP...Aaahhh,nOoOoOo...

Well, it' time...huh~~~

And...I'm nervous for this coming semester.

Seriously.

Although it's just going to be like 2 months & a half, it's my decision to take the 2 levels of Arabic classes simultaneously anyway.

I mean I have survived during my matriculation days and I certainly remember the fear of not getting the Arabic words right in class because our lecturer was so fond with randomly selected people in class during question-answer session and... I had always been so anxious till the end of the semester. Terrible headache.

Hurm.

May be I can deal with the 1st level but to carry that weight of positivity 4 level II, ermmmm...I'm not sure just yet.

Not that I can't reserve the Arabic level II for next semester, which btw, is my final semester ^_^, BUT the thing is by taking both classes, I probably can push myself a little bit harder focusing on just the language. And of course, I definitely do not want to put myself at risk that I may fail the subject if I do it in my final sem, especially for Arabic level II (heard that the lecturer is a tough one too, just GREAT...). Yeah I might have to resit the exam or worse...go thru another tedious sem just for Arabic. It sure is a nightmare, I'm scared...

No turning back. Face it.

Now I'm thinking...may be I shud've taken Arabic when I was still in my 1st year, during the time when I was struggling so hard to finish off my BM, Intensive Writing, Integrated Skills and Tilawah classes. Basically, those classes that need early & quick attention from you, finish off every subject b4 you begin to concentrate on your major subjects. I mean, at least, I tot so too. Otherwise, I wouldn't have to worry that much right now.

But, too late 4 that. See, procrastination is never good.

I'm worried...God, help me survive...!!!

P/S: Tgh punggah sume nota Arab time matric dolu2 nih, fuh~ hurm? uhuk...uhuk...uhuk...! Berhabuk...Takleh harap...huh~~~

I'm home!!!

Just got back from Langkawi last night, still freaking tired...

More updates & kewl pics in the next post.

Me nak titon dulu, tata~

So addicted to Heroes...

Yes Heroes...just by mentioning it has got me so excited. Tambah2 lagik me ni bkn yer jenis minat sakan kat citer berseries neh like Farah tp sejak menonton Heroes neh, tetibe je aku bersungguh2 download. Sejarah nih...selama nih, ape2 cite bersiri, aku harapkan tgk kat t.v je.

It got me so addicted that for the past few days, I had it in my dreams...
No kidding but my dream turned out to be so scary. Especially the brutality of Sylar sent shivers down my spine when I woke up, geezzz...*berpoloh2 den tau...*

B4 balik umah td, aku dok terpikir la dpt ke tak, nak download a few more episodes. Ye laaa...takat gune limewire, berjanggut jugak nak menunggu. Dahla sengal lagik cane nak gune Torrents file, tsk3x...Pastuh time aku tgh buat defragment kat laptop nih, Kak Hana yg lepak ngan kitaorg kejap ternmpak la file Heroes yg tgh defrag tuh...
Bile die mentioned je, terus aku pon dok excited cite. Kebetulan *tak tau la kebetulan cos sesape tgk cite nih, guarantee lentok punyer loh* Kak Hana plaks suke tgk cite nih and die baru je tgk smpai episode 4. Me pon ckp loh me got smpai ep 10. Then the next thing she said was,

"Oh, tuh la I suruh Leman burn kan the episodes smpai the latest one for me, tuh ader kat bilik Balkies, amiklaa...buat copy kat laptop azie".





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Huwaaaarrrgggghhhh!!!!! YeahaaaaAaAaAaAaAAa...!!!!

Biar betik!!! aku pon apelagik, tercari2 laa kat meja Balkies...then found it!!!!
Me trus buat copy. Tak byk, just ep 13, 14 & 17...ep 11 tak dpt plaks copy cos tak bley bukak plaks dvd tuh...alahai...ep 11 loh the peak yer...tp takpelaaa...still, me tersgt la hepi smpaikan aku tanye Kak Hana quite a few times "bley ke copy...free2 neh...?".

Kak Hana yg cun & baik ati tuh pon said "Laaaah...amende yer plaks tak free...copy je loh...".

Muahahahahahahahaa... seronot tak terkata!!!


Thanks to Leman too though bkn kenal, hehehe!!!

Gosh...!!! The Prestige is a damn GOOD movie!!!

Lurve it so much, been watching it for like 3 times oredi, totally brilliant. Tgk movie nih terase mcm nak direct a movie on my own jugak, hurm...such an inspirational movie, that one...

EAP sufferer, i am...

Just handed in my unfinished argumentative essay.
And just got back my Outline paper. I got an average marks which I tot boleh tahan laaa considering buat last minute and it's the 4th time I'd changed my research topic. So be grateful azie, should u be more prepared & do things in order, u would have get better marks.
*So jealous of Farah...hers is so good, want to have her terrerness...*

Luckily...Mrs. Yasmin gave another chance to continue doing it next tuesday, fuh~
At least, I'll have more to time to construct an essay draft or something eh...

AiyooOo...severe mental sufferings in the next couple weeks!
Term paper is due in March and... I haven't got my stuff straight yet*sob, sob*
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As I've mentioned in the previous post, EAP is the subject that really push u to the edge man.If u're not patient enough, u'll end up losing ur mind and... sanity,huhu~~

I'm having a hard time to cope with the task, seriously. With the do's & don'ts in making a research paper, I must say, it's quite a challenge. u need 2 spend hours in the library since undergrads are not allowed to borrow more than 6 books, which is a bit suck.Why can't we have like 10 books at least...??!!!

Probably mmg students disuruh melawat library lelame kot & ari2...

*a couple days after that day, me got 2 know can borrow 10 books, zura bgtau yg kebetulan die pon cari buku 4 EAP,huhu~*

Yesterday, I'd spent another 4 more hours in the library. 2 hours searching 4 the right references & another 2 hours, lepaking reading newspaper. And the best thing was, I got 2 know that the library didn't close at 7pm for Maghrib prayer. All this while, I tot it will & bukak balik at 8pm. Well, can't blame me...the library used to close at 7pm. Geezzz...that proved that I haven't been there 4 the longest time, tsk3x...
And so gerak ke masjid for prayer. Isn't it cool...i mean, if u can't pray, u can just sit back & relax...sejuk2...brrrr...
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But the good thing about going thru horrible process, I now know what is like to do a research paper, hurm...if not 100% ^_^
All the things I'm learning & consuming right now, would be undoubtedly useful when pursuing my Masters next year. Amin...

So just deal with EAP for as long as u are forced to. O_o
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movie marathon

SepatOt yer semlm nak pi library, buat EAP sket...tapi...

Ntah kenape yerterday tetibe je I felt like watching 2 movies in a row alone...ingatkan nak buat 3 terus,huhu~ tp mcm tak sempat jew, 2 movies pon dah amik mase smpai ke ptg,hurm.
Tambah2 lagik, mom doesn't really like me balik umah lmbat dah lately, which...mmg leceh plaks...aku nih lagik mlm lagik rancak.










Teringat plaks bile aku balik umah dlm 2am sbb tgk konsert radja last year, havoc gak mak aku dibuat yer time tuh. Mom majok gaban the next day,hu~So I've decided after the incident not to blk umah later than 12am...which again...mmg leceh...

Oh about yesterday, managed to watched The Holiday ( a romantic movie) & Epic (lebey kureng cam cite Scary Movie, hence, mmg lawak), hehe...

Mcm coincidence plaks, the lines spoken by Amanda (Cameron Diaz) in The Holiday which say:
"I need some peace & quiet... or whatever it is people go away for".

Just the right state I was in yerterday...the whole day O_o

And I guess The Holiday was just the right movie to watch it all by myself...

And the fact that it's a love story, I should've watch it on Valentine's Day with my loved one or something shouldn't I...? Pretty ironic, though but never mind...

Klau nak diikutkan, it was just like any other love story movies but The Holiday has its own uiqueness & the storyline somehow charmed me, ader storyteller plaks tuh, then there are a number of beautiful, romantic lines... there're also lines that simply make u aware of ur senses. Pretty sweet & in some way, just urge u to relate it with ur life.

Not to mention, I just love Cameron's bob hair cut, so cute on her. Have always liked her since she made her appearance in The Mask, back in 1994, she's so dynamic & just know how 2 portray perfect facial expression in her acting.




As for Jack Black, ingatkan mcm die ni tak sesuai je berlakon dlm love movie nih, tapi sangkaan mmg meleset, die nih mmg berkaliber jugaks...Selain bley berlawak secara serious tp die bley gak berlawak secara romantik, uuuuuu...soOoOoOo falling for him ^_^

The best thing I lurve about him is his eyes, the way he looks at someone & in this movie, the way he looks at Iris (Kate Winslet) lovingly. So undeniably making u cair, huhu~~


Best gak loh dpt tgk 2 movies in a row 4 the 2nd time. 1st time ngan Farah, kitaorg tgk Wishing Stars ke Wishing Stairs hape & right after that, tgk LOTR, mmg berpinar mata tgk, tsk3x...but it was a great deal of experience. Just sit back, relax & watch da GOOD movies, haaaa...

I hope I could do this kind of thing again. Probably 3 movies in a row,heheh~ That would take the whole day. Totally couch potato type,hurm...

Aku & 2007

Another year has come,woOhoO...!

Teruk betul kan...dah nak abes bln January nih baru nak post 4 the year 2007,adeh...

Right...Obviously,this is my first entry for 2007 & I hope I can keep my blog going with a

SPLASH throughout the year,Weeee~~~

*even if this is a late entry, I still want to wish u all a HAPPY NEW YEAR !!!, muacks*

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2007 signifies my new phase of life & living towards the age of 23, I want to be a better person, challenge myself to do things I should have done long,long time ago & things I thought are impossible to get them done. Uh-huh, sound pretty yadaa,yadaa...but I am hoping though...

*well...that's what I thought...for now ^_^*

This new semester, I am officially a final year student, cool hor...? There's going 2 be another 2 semesters 2 go & then I'm off to Pluto!!! Dop de Dop de Dop...

Rase mcm kejap je kan...time passes so swiftly, I thought it was just yerterday that I've shifted to main campus, here, in Gombak. Rase mcm hari tuh je me, yas, farah, sha, nairus, safia lepak kat Genting...had a really good time together *teringat time kite sume amik pic dpn fountain tuh...* sungguh memorable...

Throughout the years kat UIA nih, mcm2 dah kita lalui. Hepi, sedey...semua yer utk buat kita sedar, kite bkn mcm budak2 sekolah lagik & over the years, kite become mature, aware ngan surroundings & that... life IS tough.

Ape yg dilalui kat Matric seolah2 mcm sukar sgt nak kekalkan bile dah kat Gombak nih. Masing2 dgn perangai masing2, each with our own expectations, apatah lagik, dok kolej jauh2. Tapi...most of the time, kite berubah atas nama persahabatan. It's undeniably true, things changed & things would change, for the better or for worse but do we have enough guts 2 face the reality...? Terutama sekali, realiti tentang diri kita & how we interact with others...?

Salu je terpikir, do we get to see each other again after graduation...? I don't wish friendships I've built for more that 3 years just puff! like that bile dah blah dari UIA. Biarlah kite menerima masing2 dgn hati terbuka, honest,ikhlas & positive because persahabatan itu ader its ups & downs.

Bocor sane...bocor sini...tuh,biasaQ lor kan...

I know I've changed as a person in every aspect...I've been through a lot & I'm proud aku masih on the right track. God still loves me...and what others perceive me probably have changed too tapi yg penting, aku tau aku masih ader pegangan diri lagi.

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Sejak the last relationship, aku sebenar yer dah serik nak menjalin hubungan kapel2 nih. Lagi saat genting mcm nih, nak grad sume... Tambah lagi ngan assignments yg berlambak2. Byk sgt committments, byk sgt responsibilities & sacrifices of various forms kene go through...Kadang2 terpikir jugak, berbaloi ke menjalinkan hubungan cinta pada waktu ini...?

Apatah lagik apabila hubungan yg terjalin dahulu 4 more than 3 years hilang ntah kemane...penah tak dgr; Kawan hanya untuk berkapeL...? Bagi sesetengah org, mungkin akan m'hadapi kesukaran utk berkwn ngan si dia yg penah kita cintai dgn sepenuh jiwa & raga. Kenangan indah, pahit sume pasti akan menerjah, probably every second bile kite spend time ngan si dia (ex) bile dah break up.

Some pulak, bende mcm ni tak m'jadi masalah; bersikap professional terhadap bekas pasangan yg penah bertakhta di hati kita tuh; berkwn seperti yg dilalui b4 bertukar menjadi pasangan kekasih. Mungkin benar, hilang boyfriend takpe, jgn hilang kawan. Tapi bile kite anggap boyfriend kita seperti kwn baik kita mcm mane pulak...? konpius gue... Situasi perpisahan & definisi persabatan turut berubah for both parties, that's 4 sure.

Usia pon semakin meningkat, zaman2 cinta monyet dah lepas, it's time for the real world, real relationship. Itu aku tak nafikan. Of course, marriage is another story lar kan tp basically, mampukah kita mengekalkan hubungan cinta sehingga ke jinjang pelamin...?

Jodoh,hurm...

-_- l l l l

*Hidup tanpa lelaki pon bosan jugak, at least aku rase mcm tuh...Tapi buat mase nih, hati ini sedang berbunga2 kerana si DIA...

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Semester nih subjects yg aku amik sume takdela horror sgt...tp horror la jugaks...especially EAP (English for Academic Purposes),huhu~~

Sounds so gempak kan...lagik gempak lagik horror,isk3x...ingatkan dah majoring in English nih tak payah la nak susah2 amik subject English lagik...tambah2 kat martic dulu dah amik dah subject cenggini.Mase memula came for the class, me tot kelas mcm English biase...y'know,like buat essay berlambak2...blaja grammar...listening skill ke hape tuh haaa...

Sekali...mmg salah sangka betik...kitaorg diarahkan buat a complete research paper contained 2500 words keh...nak mamposs??!!! bkn tuh je...kene cari references byk2,nak latest plaks tuh...lagik2 tajuk related dgn course kitaorg...mau nak cari satu library tuh...pening dah aku nih...semlm baru je anta Outline research paper tuh.Tak tau laaa...main buat je.Ni dah masuk kali ke-4 aku tukar topic assignment nih. Ni la jugak akibat yer bile disuruh pilih tajuk sendiri, tergapai2 jugak aku dibuat yer.

Kebetulan pulaks,sem ni aku amik Research Methodology...ni pon subject horror jugaks.Nak paham tuh mcm nak paham Mathematics...aku ni mmg lemah maths. Dari skool dulu, tak dapek nak buat ape dah. Subject ni plaks byk nau concepts nak paham, tp untung laaa dpt lecturer yg begitu dedicated & kelakar gaban giler ^_^ Takdela nak stress sgt, cume aku terpakse bgn pepagi nak pi kelas tuh, kelas tuh starts at 8.30am tapi...aku kene ader kat situ at least 45mins lebey awal...nak berebut tempat kata...seksa gaks loh...takpela,cikgu best,heeee~~

oh erm! dressing cikgu tuh mmg "classic" giler...aku rase suar yg die pakai tuh time die masih muda remaja kot, ala2 70s gitu, ketat sey...tp he looks cute on it...y'know old man with great sense of humour, dressing cam cute2 tuh, olololoOoOo...

Lagik 1 subject yg tak kureng seriau yer...is US History.Mmg bkn dlm plan nak amik subjek nih pon tp subject alternative lain dah closed section (kelas dah pnuh). Kang tak amik, dah takde mase nak amik subjek lain plaks, dah nak grad nih, baik jgn byk songeh hor...Berblk kpd US History nih, untung gaks dpt lecturer yg tahap expert giler...nama die Dr. Kopanski,org Poland nih...dah kate org asing, amik mase gak nak paham percakapan die ni, tp bley la nak paham info2 penting, nasib baik gaks kelakar gaban, tak stress sgt,hehehe...! Die pon jenis org tua yg mmg suke buat aksi2 lawak yg mmg cute, ololoOoOLOoOo...

* Next week, ader midterm plaks, kene hapal peta America tuh, kedudukan die sume...yg horror yer, dah la oral test. Adeh...geografi laaa yg aku paling lemah...bkn tuh je, nak kene ingat segala2 yer psl indian tribe nih, aku kene buat psl HURON tribal Indian...

Ni la sejarah, nak mengingat tuh mencabar betik...huh~~

Selain subjects diatas, aku amik Feature Writing & American Literature, hurm...both pon kira boleh tahan gaks cabaran getir die tuh...cume FW mmg super jumbo bosan...sume yer disebabkan lecturer tuh...baik mmg baik tapi aduhai saleha...mengajar sambey duduk...dah tuh plaks, penggunaan bahasa Inggeris, rase yer aku lagik up sket kot, isk3x...mmg disappoint jugaks cos kate feature writing...English kene hebat nak tulis2 articles tuh sume.Nasib2...nak tak nak, kene go thru gak ngan die. All the more reason nak ponteng kelas die nih, tsk3x...noty2...Tp mmg tabik la lecturer 4 American Lit...so damn funny, so freaking giler2!

Mmg tak sia2 pi kelas mlm m'ngadap cikgu tuh, secara tak lngsung, subjek tuh jadi best.

* Literature ni klau tak iya2,mmg bosan + stress + sleepy + gaban = permanent head damage

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Sepatot yer nak kene pi library ni, nak cari bahan for EAP,aduhai...lemah betik O_o

i'm BACK!!!

It's been forever since I last blogged...tsk,tsk,tsk...well,tetibe je ader semangat nak blog once again. *tepuk tgn,yeayyy!!!*

Yeah,I know...aku tak committed,tak serious & biarkan je mase berlalu tanpa sebarang cacatan,huhu~~probably becoz I lost my precious camera so I tot blogging without displaying real pictures taken by ME would be quite BORING...
That was it...Or may be because I was in the state of malas...kot. Malas aja sih...ape yg rajin pon tak tau,hoho!

The year is coming to an end.Rase mcm kejap je kan...Rase mcm I have let everything slipped without doing anything about it.This year has been really TOUGH especially during SEM I 06/07. It made me wanna go crazy.

OMG...

Sometimes...I mean,most of the time,I ask myself,"Is there anything that I can be proud of?"...

Aku rase SEM I nih was the longest semester with so many things happened.Not to mention,I took 6 subjects which will make u want 2 put ur head in a longkang of polluted water, full of shit. There were times when I felt I couldn't take it anymore & eventually, I lost my focus on those subjects particularly Ling App.

Despite that,I passed all of my subjects,yeayyy!!! although not with flying colours tapi cun la kot result tuh.Indeed,it's quite surprising that I did pass for Ling App. & Elit III.
Those 2 I'll tell u...are the cause of my depression,loneliness & brain damage.But then,I guess I didn't put much focus in my studies.I took them for granted,I thought I could manage it by merely belek-belek,gelek-gelek,y'know...hurm.

Then, there was this annual event called ETW (English Theater Week).In conjunction with that,a teater competition was held in Sept. & there were 4 production houses.My group of friends is one them.It was a great experience working with the team although we had several TOooOot here & there & plus, since ni baru 1st time to work as a team with quite a number of ppl, ader laa timbul dissatisfaction,sakit ati & all but we all managed 2 go thru it successfully,fuh~we had dinner at kubur (kebetulan restoran tuh located opposite muslims' cemetery) after that.Celebrate lor sket kan.Although during the award ceremony,we didn't win anything but I think we did good enough for 1st timers,hehe...

Ader yg plan nak join ETW again next year...tp...tak tau laaa...by that time,it'll be our final semester...and I'm still thinking about it,tatot takleh concentrate on other things,huhu~~ And the fact that we had to work with some ppl yg cam kereQ,we've got to think millions times.Damn...

Ape lagik erk yg terjadi...Oh erm! aku penah mengalami sakit pening pale - nak - muntah je during Ethics & Discourse midterm tests...mmg giler.Aku heran sesgt mcm mane aku leh sakit smpai cenggitu skali...Aku ingat lagik,in da middle of Ethics test,aku terpakse meluru kuar kelas ...termuntah dlm longkang sbb tak sempat ke toilet...toilet pon bley jauh nun disana...malu tak malu laaa...there was a girl saw me vomitting & she probably thought I was pregnant or something.Confirm lps tuh,die tak lalu nak mkn,hehehe...well,u can guess a few weeks after that, I got back my result & I almost failed for my Ethics midterm test.aaarrghhh...!!! Can't really blame me...lalalalaaaa...

Of course, this year for 2 semesters (SEM 3 & SEM 1) I had one of the best roommies,Kak Zeti,Kak Hanna & Balkies.Diaorg nih mmg cool giler,sporting sgt.We are so open to each other.Kak Zeti mmg sgt baik & understanding...mmg lawak lor akak nih.Suke kacau kite tau,hehehe...Aku ingat lagik when we were in da same class for Sociolinguistics,I always tot die ni mcm sombong je...hurmm,tp bile dah serumet,she is so COOL.Tak sangka betul.I love you Kak Zeti! Kak Hanna pon camtuh gaks,dah byk kali gak terserempak ngan die kat uia,owez tot she's so stylo...so cun, so famous but owez goes around with this arrogant kind look.BUT she is so COOL too.Again mmg tak sangka...love u too Kak Hanna,hoho! tp yg sedey yer,both of them dah graduate.Baru nak rapat2,nak lepak2...Tinggal aku & Balkies je...wondering who's the other new roomies,hurm...Hope dpt yg cool jugak laaa...tak mau yg kereQ2 or some possessed, psychotic girls.

This year jugak,I've learnt some hard lessons about myself. I realised that bkn sume org suke kat kite walau mcm mane baik pon kite kat org.And that we have to be willing to open up to others too cos klau simpan dlm ati...pendam je...titon pon tarak lena.Aku sedar gaks yg kite takleh nak percaya sgt ngan org... all this while u tot she's ur bestfren but u're so wrong in the end when u ask for her help for the most important thing *sigh* Takpelaa,at least I know she's different now in that sense.God,help me...I hope she stills the one I know back in primary school.

In fact, I have taken on new responsibilities as a student, sister & as a daughter in the family.Skang ni aku dah lebey independent,tak mengharap org sgt...at least things have not been the same especially since the death of my father.My mom's courage has pushed me forward,not to let anybody puts u down.

New semester begins this 4th December & I'm about to go through another 6 subjects...horror x horror loh...Still,I hope I can do my best this time,no more goofing around.*serious nih...*

Akhir kata,selamat maju jaya,huhu~~

revision week...

hmmm...revision week nie rase cam semester break plaks...huhu~~

rase cam bkn nak m'hadapi final exam....ahhh...TIDAKKKK...

tido byk je nih...helpppp....

aku sengal....sengal...

1st paper (25th march '06) = COMPUTER APPLICATIONS IN LANGUAGE STUDIES

ari sabtu...ish...spoil...ape nih...sabtu...alahai...tsk!

i was surprised that TODAY is Thursday...it's Thursday already!!!...oh man!!
and i'll be going back to UIA in the next couple of days...uwaaaaa...the worst thing is...i haven't done anything to finish my assignments...loads of assignments...;'(

2 do list:

1. Grammatical Analysis
2. Comp App - 1st draft-portfolio
3. drama script -Taming of the shrew
4. materials for parenting management course
5. ............ntah ape lagik,haku pong tak hengat...hehehe

there u go...& none of them blum abih lagik...due date is like next month...puh-leeeeezzz azie...move,MOVE AZIE!!!

OKEH THAT'S IT!!

I MUST DO SOMETHING TOMORROW...COZ TONIGHT...I HAVE TO ENJOY MY ....PIZZA =D

YESSSSS!!!

SILE JEMPUT MKN RAKAN2 KU...ONCE again, i just jemput y'll jerk...NO SHARING keh...TAMAK SELALU...yer...ape murid2...???

yer...betuL...TAMAK SELALU BAHAGIA...muahahahahaha!!!!